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Proper care for your boytoy
I’m not doing well. The process of tapering off of Effexor is draining all of my energy, and at the same time my anxiety and depression are riding high. What really bothers me about being so broken is...
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Another Year
I’m tired of writing about my mental illness. I’m tired of finally having the urge and energy to create something, only to find it has been so long since I’ve updated my blog that (due to it’s...
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Things to look forward to.
Things are more or less looking up for me right now. I’m on a better mix of meds which has once again leveled out my mental state. It’s not perfect, but its definitely at a place where I can function...
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Almost an embarrassing ER story
I might be becoming a little bit of a size queen. Oh, god, that makes me blush just to type…. Anyway, I’ve got a number of anal toys, and it’s pretty common for me to have something in my ass when...
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As close as it gets: Dottie Gets Spanked
I’m taking a film criticism class this quarter, and for my mid-term I ended up watching what is possibly the best film-handling of BDSM I’ve ever seen. Dottie Gets Spanked explores the development of...
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Ride’em Cowboy
A few weeks ago Chaos tried to fist me again. It was marvelous; she’s getting pretty close to being able to fit her whole hand inside me, I told her that I had stretched myself out with Dita (my...
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Gone Quiet
I haven’t written in a while, and I haven’t been particularly chatty on social media either. I’m doing better than I was, but I’m expending all of my energy on the things that are vital to me right...
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Hindsight is 20/20: Polyamory for the Mono-amorous
For a very long time I’ve wanted to try and share my experience with polyamory, since it seems to be a fairly common practice in the BDSM “community.” I feel like many people who are new to BDSM are...
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Puppyboy
Chaos and I have been doing a lot more puppy play recently than I ever suspected I would engage in. It started with, I don’t know, her commenting that I was like a cute puppy, especially when my hair...
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Good Boyfriends Eat Ass
I’m not quite sure where I first heard that eating ass was a “thing,” or when I first wanted to do it. I’ve always been orally fixated. Early on in my development of the concept of sex, I latched onto...
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S.O.S. (i.S.)
Save our Submissive in Seattle I really love writing Submissive in Seattle. It has been really great to be able to share my thoughts and experiences to entertain and occasionally inform and educate. I...
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Thank You Patrons!
I found out this morning that my Patreon goal had been matched already! The extremely generous, Comeoutofthecold, out of Portland made a pledge that pushed me past my goal this morning, and will keep...
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A Malesub Looks at Thirty
I just checked and it’s been four years since I updated this blog. Jeez, there has been a lot in those four years. It’s taken me several years to feel like myself again, after the medication changes I...
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Ch-ch-changes pt. 1:
An Imperfect Recollection of the Past Okay. I said I was going to start blogging again, and I meant it. And since it’s taken me a month of quarantine during a global pandemic to publish anything, I...
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Cha-cha-changes pt. 2: Chastity
Part two of my fast-forward catch-up series on the past four years of my kinky life. Read part one here. It was a bit of a whim. We had been practicing orgasm denial for quite a while, and as my sex...
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Cha-cha-changes pt 2b: More Chastity
Part 2b in bringing my blog up to speed with my life — Where we are with chastity now, felt like it needed its own post. You can read the last one here. Chaos and I have been quietly playing with...
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Cha-cha-changes pt 3: Losing my religion
When I started blogging, it was a way for me to explore my identity. Specifically, my religion and upbringing as a Christian and how it conflicted with my newfound identity as a kinky (eventually...
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Apologies to TheGoddessZoe
A brief Interlude after dropping last post’s melodramatic update (and next week’s blush inducing one.) So, as I was planning out this series of posts to bring this blog up to date. It occured to me...
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Cha-cha-changes pt. 4 Coming out as a Cuck
Well, it’s in the title, right? I really don’t have to say any more, do I? It’s not that I am ashamed of this kink, or any of my kinks, but this one certainly still has the ability to embarrass me. My...
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Cha-cha-changes pt 5: The Ecstasy of Cuckolding
I feel like a gosh darn cliche. A chastised submissive Cuckold; if Chaos had any interest in forced femme I’d be writing this in petticoats right now. But everyone’s kink journey is unique, even if so...
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